Written on December 7, 2013: I will publish several posts that I wrote BEFORE we announced and were in the midst of a pile of paperwork :)
Some days I feel so confident in the wait and then other days I look too far ahead and it seems impossible. The mountain is too high. The road is too long. The wait is too terrible. Today was one of those days.
I felt like giving up. I felt like there were too many ridiculous boxes to check off the list and too many months in-between the final result....our daughter.
I texted and talked with several friends and immediately I was flooded with encouraging words, Bible verses and sweet words. It was just what I needed to hear. Thank God for faithful sisters.
Later that afternoon, I talked to my mom, and she told me about a dream.
A dream about our baby girl.
She said, "Britt, I had a dream about last night. I couldn't see her face, I could only see her dark hair. But I could see your face. We were at a hospital (strange, but maybe it signifies the "birth" of her into our family) and she was wobbling to you, learning to walk. I could see your arms spread wide open and I could see the joy on your face. Britt, it was so vivid!"
Well, cue the tears.
But it was just what I needed to see the big picture. Because sometimes her face seems so blurry, I can't even see past my present needs and wants. The big picture is that all of these days, months and check marks will equal a day that I will be standing before her with JOY! How our God stands before us with open arms and JOY on His face as we try our best to stand on two legs and wobble to His embrace.
Thankful that He is there, waiting for me as a I wobble through everyday, thankful He catches this girl who falls so short....all the time.
Thankful we are waiting for HER, as she wobbles through her days, physically alone, HE is there catching HER and holding her so tight.
Some days I feel so confident in the wait and then other days I look too far ahead and it seems impossible. The mountain is too high. The road is too long. The wait is too terrible. Today was one of those days.
I felt like giving up. I felt like there were too many ridiculous boxes to check off the list and too many months in-between the final result....our daughter.
I texted and talked with several friends and immediately I was flooded with encouraging words, Bible verses and sweet words. It was just what I needed to hear. Thank God for faithful sisters.
Later that afternoon, I talked to my mom, and she told me about a dream.
A dream about our baby girl.
She said, "Britt, I had a dream about last night. I couldn't see her face, I could only see her dark hair. But I could see your face. We were at a hospital (strange, but maybe it signifies the "birth" of her into our family) and she was wobbling to you, learning to walk. I could see your arms spread wide open and I could see the joy on your face. Britt, it was so vivid!"
Well, cue the tears.
But it was just what I needed to see the big picture. Because sometimes her face seems so blurry, I can't even see past my present needs and wants. The big picture is that all of these days, months and check marks will equal a day that I will be standing before her with JOY! How our God stands before us with open arms and JOY on His face as we try our best to stand on two legs and wobble to His embrace.
Thankful that He is there, waiting for me as a I wobble through everyday, thankful He catches this girl who falls so short....all the time.
Thankful we are waiting for HER, as she wobbles through her days, physically alone, HE is there catching HER and holding her so tight.
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2 comments:
O.K. I am following . . . Praying we can travel together surprisingly SOON!
Beautiful story, friend .
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