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Tonight, as I reflect on our last weekend as a family of three, I became somewhat sentimental. I stared at Layton intently, watching his moves, listening to his voice, and I paid close attention to my little guy as he soaked up all of our undivided attention. We played games, sang songs, baked a cake, put puzzles together, and just enjoyed fun snuggle time. We even let him fall asleep on the couch (a big no, no!) at around 10 pm. It was a fun night, that will hopefully be followed by a fun day tomorrow. His last weekend with mom and dad....as an only child.

"Sentimental me" decided to also get out the album of his newborn days. As I began to tear up, I got butterflies thinking about the adventure awaiting us. I can't wrap my mind around the fact that it is going to happen all over again. I am going to be a mommy to someone new...someone that has been hidden from me, but not from his/her maker. As I begin to get nervous about the experience of child birth, I have to remember who is in control. And then tonight, as I was in the kitchen, I noticed our prayer calendar....Monday's verse (new induction date) was Proverbs 3:3. I quickly picked up my Bible and began reading, "Let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart." Faith. Although the events of Monday are unknown to me, they are not unknown to Him...and with that I feel very comforted and at peace.

So, as I prepare my mind for what is to come, I also prepare my heart...to be bigger on Monday that it is today - loving once again, more than it ever has, because I will have two loves that will forever be my children.